bubble

There is a split second of free time in your life, what to do is always the thought that enters mine however never do I seem to actually follow what i have thought of instead I sit and think about how much I am missing out on in life during my most important teenage years. Trying to just be sixteen is a lot harder than some people may measure it up to be. When people ask me if I have a boyfriend I always say the same thing, " indeed I do, I have three" There names are school, volleyball and work. They are the three things in my life that consume a big part if not the entire part of my day. When I look back on the past three months I begin to question if what I have been doing is more productive then entertaining and weather or not it was worth not being a teenager for. I guess you could say I am just going through a faze in my life where I find that being a more reliable and well thought of person is more important than being well entertaining and fun. Not to say that I am not fun its just that I find latly i have been more anti social then I have ever been when it comes to my friends and family which are the people that matter most to me in my life however I seem to have the zero factor of time.

I have been in my old little bubble latly, having a schedual that repeats week after week with the same things to do. Mondays are the same old stay at the school till 5:30 then do my coaching for the night and by the time I get home I watch my television shows and I am upstairs in my room for the remainder of the night. Tuesday I go to school, then stall at the school for three hours till my volleyball starts then I have practice and go home shower which is the same thing what I do thursday, and is the reason why I am writing this right now. The weekends are for working and even though wednesday is my "free" day i still manage to stay to myself and do absolutly nothing. I think it is time that i branch out and do new things because pretty soon I will not be able to get back to the way that things use to be, with a smile on my face and free from all problems that I yet to entail.